It has been quite some time since the last time I went out to date a total stranger. The truth is, I did not notice that the stranger that I used to date a few years ago was no longer a stranger to me but rather someone whom I have become familiar with. She has already become someone whom I have shared everything that is all about me. She has become a bigger part of my whole life and will be the person whom I will share my eternity with.
But it was not like this a few years ago. Though I was not the kind of person who has the power to date everyone I wish to date, I had my fair share of dates. They were not like some Aberdeenshire dating game that I participated so I can earn points and get my reward at the end of the day. I saw them more as an opportunity to learn more about girls and the dating scene. Of course, I would not deny the fact that it was also for the purpose of hopefully finding the person that I would choose to be part of my life forever.
However, I was not really lucky when it comes to such endeavors and though people see me being with a variety of girls, it was not really something that I could brag about. Besides, I was not one to brag about the number of girls I dated. I just shake my head when people tell me that I was good with girls. I know fully-well that it is non-comparable to the guys that I know who really have gone with a lot of girls. I have seen people who really were surrounded by girls and who have the bragging rights to do so.
The truth was, I wanted to go out with them so I could get to know them all, perhaps become friends with some of them. Maybe perhaps to become lovers with them as my wishful thinking would go about. Maybe to become more knowledgeable about how girls behave and how to woe girls or court them. Maybe to satiate my past dissatisfied failed relationships and convince myself that I deserve something better than what I had before. It could even be that I just wish to realize my imagined state of bliss when I was in my younger years which I could not realize due to circumstances in life.
Regardless of the real reason, I never stopped dating. I wanted to continue but my life is different now. So many things have changed and they will remain this way forever and I will let my life be as it is right now. Those days are over and though a part of me somehow longs for that feeling, I already turned my back from it to face my new life. My life with this person I learned to love and will be till I breathe my last for her.